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LILY!

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I know I haven’t been here in months and theres too much to update everyone on-

but one thing I think is important to update you guys on
is that OhMyJackson [shonna] Sent me a plush Peter Pan and a note attatched too it with a quote from peter pan that fit all of us.

So I’d just like to say thank you to Shonna, and that I have framed that note and Peter Pan sits on my bed right at the front <3

So, Im smiling today and laughing, and I love it.

I love you Mike <3 

I hope all this joy and love is with your family today also. <3

mj-rocks asked: “Never say goodbye, because goodbye means going away, and going away means forgetting.”

Peter Pan

Thats one of my favorite quotes, and you’re right.
I’ll never say goodbye <3

1 year- The Legend still lives on & Goodbye to Tumblr.

1 year ago today we lost an idol. Time passes so fast.
I remember where I was the exact moment I heard the news, Everyone rubbed it off simply thinking it was another publicity scam.
But then when CNN came on with the breaking news headline that Michael Jackson was in a coma and had suffered what everyone just believed to be the standard heart attack, the whole world stopped, I can honestly say that almost every individual who owns a television set, sat eagerly waiting and watching, I, was one of the eager.
After 30 minutes of nothing changed my heart had decided, Michael would get through it, and the next day he’d be out of his coma with fans screaming outside the hospital and napkins with sincere messages set free from his hand out the hospital window, only for it to decide which lucky fan got the priveledge to hold it, keep it, frame it, cherish it.
But my assumption and hope was shattered when the news hit, I couldn’t believe it.
“CNN can now confirm that Michael Jackson has died”
Was the words I heard, In a robotic, non-sympathetic but an apologetic yet still shocked tone.
It never sank in for days,  I went around my usual routine almost like nothing had happened until I came face to face with a newspaper, magazine, or the TV. Then the memory rushed back again.
Was he dead? Was he actually deceased? Was Michael Jackson no longer living?
How is that possible- Was the only thought running through my mind.
I avoided TV, I avoided news stands, I avoided the news in the denial that Michael Jackson had actually died.
It wasn’t until July 7, 2009 that It actually sunk in.
For the few weeks when the news was still fresh, talk of a memorial, then confirmation of a memorial was talked of, also the fact that it was too be televised.
Ofcourse I couldn’t miss this, Michael Jackson’s memorial.
The morning of I woke up too early to comprehend anything in the fear that I would miss it, any of it.
With second thoughts I began to tear away from the idea of watching, everytime the thought came, it triggered a flurry in my stomach, knots and butterflies, and the feeling in my throat, dry and closed up. and the tears that ran to my eyes.
I couldn’t watch it. Death is something that I find hard to cope with no matter who it is, because everyone has loved ones, and the pain I KNOW they feel tugs at my heart.
When it started It was decided, I had to watch. all the way through I set back tears and sobs, even when joyous memories were being shared, there would always be a glimpse at a jackson family member’s face and the joyous memory was ruined, the pain I saw, it felt tangible.
It wasn’t until Brooke Shields’ speech that I had to release my sobs, and from then on it was uncontrollable.
I wanted it to be over, I hated the feeling.

The same feeling comes in twinges now, whenever I’m reminded, Whenver I see him on TV, or when a song plays unexpectadley.
A week today was my friend’s 16th birthday party, towards the end while I was sitting talking with friends, Man in the mirror played.
It was completely unexpected, and the feeling of my stomach drop but my heart rise was the strangest combination I’d ever felt.
For 5 minutes and 22 seconds the noise of babble and chatter was tuned out, and the only person at that party was Michael and I.
It was magical.

Today will be a day of celebration, not mourn. Although the wounds feel fresh again, it musn’t phase us.
Michael is with all of us today, and there’s nothing to mourn anymore.
No matter how troubled he was, no matter how tormented he was in his life, it’s over. He is with God.

I know I haven’t been on in months, but coming on today is important and I feel it’s also important to recognize that these past few months, I’ve been living without tumblr, without the MJFam, by myself, with no aid to help me deal with his death, and That to me, is a milestone. and although I love all of you who helped each other, and myself with the death of an idol, a father, a son, an uncle, a legend, I want to let you know you’ve done your job for me, and i’ll never be able to thank you enough, but I need to move on with my life now, away from tumblr and that would be not be in order without a formal goodbye to each and everyone of you.
through the tough year I’ve been able to come here and share memories, and talk to people who feel the same, be myself, and not hold anything back.
Michael brought me to an amazing community, and through this, I’ve made life long friends.
Michael brought me to Lily McCune [DirtyDianaa] who I will forever keep in touch with, and one day meet, my soul sister.
Michael Brought me to Amy Clark [Liberian—girl] Who was ever only an email away and so understanding, I needed her so much.
Michael Brought me to Shonna Bell [OhMyJackson] Who is my penpal, My big sister, and soon enough I’ll meet her too.

I’ll never be able to thank all of you, especially these three people, for what you’ve done for me in this year.
and It’s clear to me, that everyone that comes into your life is for a reason.
I won’t delete my tumblr, I’ll keep it incase I ever want to relive a moment, and for any of you who ever enjoyed any of my posts, I keep it for you too.

It’s time for me to move on with my life, I’m a 16 year old girl who has alot of living of my own to do, I can’t dwell on the fact that my hero has died, but live like he wants me too, teaching future generations about his legend, Saving an earth he tried so hard to save himself, Working on getting a National Childrens day! Michael Has given me a year to mourn, a year to cry, a year to deny it all I want but a lifetime to love, and laugh and remember him like we should. and I’ll do it with Michael in my heart and each of you carved in too.
Thank you tumblr for giving me a sanctuary, a Live diary, a personal paradise.
I’ll never forget any of you.
And it sounds stupid, but this is one of the hardest goodbye’s i’ll ever have to do.
I love you all.


Thank You Michael, You live in my heart forever.
and with all of us, and I never thought a world without you could feel so empty.
Thank you for the music, Thank you for the love, Thank you for the generosity.
& Thank you God for blessing our broken earth with what I can only describe as perfection.

See you both in Heaven.

RIP Michael Joseph Jackson
1958-2009.

I love you more.